#Herofail Chapter 3



Jessie beat me back to headquarters, as she had a supersonic jet and I only had a bicycle, but I could tell that she’d barely sat down by the time I solved the logic puzzle at the front door and stumbled in. The narrowness of victory didn’t lessen the severity of my punishment.

One didn’t become the Raptor without also being a hard-ass.

Three hours later, I pushed the final boulder into place and wearily pulled myself atop it. A dark blur swooped at me. I deflected with my forearm guard, only for a sharp pain to bite into my lower back: the first dart had been a decoy. I hissed and tugged the dart out of my back, ducking a third dart and dodging a fourth. She was being mean today.

I knew what she wanted. “I’m not apologizing to Sharkbait,” I said, ducking a fifth dart.

A bolo rope shot out and clipped my ankles, knocking me stomach-first onto the boulder. I groaned as it jarred every single hit I’d taken already.

“If you hadn’t been busy trying to prove a point, you would have been able to dodge that, Ms. Godwin,” Jessie said in my earpiece.

I yanked my ankles free of the rope. “I’d hit him again, so an apology means nothing.”

“Be that as it may.”

I tossed the rope away and watched it melt into the boulder. It had taken forever to get used to that. The room had once been a regular gym, but now it was a cavernous space filled with a purple-black polymorphous gel. Nanobots in the gel moved it about, shifting and creating new obstacles at Jessie’s command.

Today’s mission had been to move four boulders to the spots marked on a map that I’d been given a split second to view. The weight of the boulders pushed at the threshold of my strength, and the nanobots made the floor slippery, even with my uniform boots. In addition to the terrain randomly changing, mental and physical traps had been hidden throughout. Exhaustion sang down to my very bones.

Part of working for one of the richest women on the planet was that she came equipped with a lot of toys, and she invariably used those toys to cause pain. The gym was a technological marvel, sleek and smooth with infinity walls, and after months of training inside it, I hated it almost as much as I’d hated being kidnapped on a weekly basis for years.

Just kidding: that had been way worse. At least the obstacle course had a time limit.

“That’s the last boulder,” I said. “Please say it’s over.”

“Stage one complete,” the synthesized voice said, echoing off the craggy surfaces around me.

“Stage one?” I didn’t yelp—until the boulder melted underneath me, dropping me on my feet. I wrinkled my nose, lifting one boot out of the muck. All of the gel had pooled on the floor in a way that reminded me of a tar pit. “Out of how many?”

She wouldn’t tell me. And if she did, it’d only be a lie. I stretched my shoulder, which had taken a nasty hit from a shock grenade earlier. Even if the next test proved to be mental rather than physical, I’d need that shoulder in top form. Jessie’s mental tests required enough focus to cause stress headaches even in the normal superheroes.

And I wasn’t exactly normal. Most superheroes gained their powers after an explosion or an accident. There’d been no explosion for me. Instead, I’d been given my powers by a mad scientist, and I hadn’t had a choice. Dr. Mobius had kidnapped me and dosed me with Mobium, which had replaced all the carbon in my body. In a matter of weeks, I’d become stronger, more durable, and quicker to heal. I also had the rare ability to absorb abilities from other superheroes, even if those powers proved arbitrary and difficult to control. The first six months after the Mobium had been stressful and jam-packed with food, as my metabolism had burned at levels that still horrified my doctor.

Luckily, that had settled. Probably because I was no longer: on the run from being falsely accused as an accessory to murder (long story); part of a plot to save Kiki from her super-healing super-douchebag of a boyfriend (longer story); or attempting to save the superhero world from collectively losing their powers (not that long a story, actually). With Jessie’s training, I’d come to grips with my Mobiumier half.

Speaking of Jessie’s training, it had never taken this long to set up a second stage of training before. The gel remained in semiliquid form under my boots. “Uh, is this part of the test?” I asked.

“No,” Jessie said, clearly frustrated. “The system’s fighting me. Get out of—”

I was already sprinting for the door. I’d had too many nightmares about being trapped in that room.

A sharp buzzing sound cut through the air as the gel in front of me flew upward into a thin column. I skidded to a halt and dropped into a fight stance. Was she messing with me? Was this actually part of the test? I wouldn’t put it beyond her.

The column morphed rapidly into a human. Either the system had lived up to my nightmares and manifested a supervillain, or Jessie had programmed in a training dummy for me to fight. I sprang forward, aiming for the solar plexus area.

The figure yelped and dodged out of the way. “Wait, no, don’t! It’s not calibrated, it’ll hurt!”

Features sprang to life on the humanoid’s blank face—and they belonged to my ex. He held out his hands.

I stepped back. “Hurting you would be the point. What the hell, Jeremy?”

The figure gained clothes, hair, shoes, all belonging to Jeremy Collins. Everything remained monochromatic purple-black until color slowly began to seep into his clothes. “Neat trick, right?” he asked.

“Annoying trick,” I said. “What are you doing here? Why are you messing with Jessie’s system?”

“Yes,” Jessie said over the intercom. “Why are you messing with my system?”

“You’re in trouble,” I sing-songed at him.

“If it’s any consolation, it took me days to get in here,” Jeremy said to the ceiling.

“That makes me feel leagues better,” Jessie said, her voice dry enough to start a forest fire.

Jeremy squirmed, smart enough to be at least a little afraid of the Raptor. The shaped gel shared his features and coloring, but it gave him plastic, unblemished skin. Physically, Jeremy was handsome and fit. He had the same build as Guy and the same eye color, which meant people thought he was actually the superhero Blaze. He did have powers, but those had come along years after the mistaken identity.

And I was getting a deeply unsettling exhibition of them right now.

“What do you think you’re doing?” I repeated.

Jeremy shrugged. He looked like an uncanny computer rendering of himself. “I was bored.”

I pinched the bridge of my nose. “You broke in just to see if you could, didn’t you?”

“Give me a break. Not everybody gets to see the mysterious Raptor’s lair,” Jeremy said.

“Jessie might actually kill you.”

“She can try,” Jeremy said smugly. The newfound powers hadn’t hurt his confidence in the slightest. “Not much she can do.”

“You really don’t know the Raptor, do you?”

Jeremy grinned. “I’ve taken over her incredibly powerful system. Nobody knows the Raptor better than I do right now.”

“I wouldn’t be so sure of that,” I said.

Six feet away, something fizzled and exploded. Jeremy’s avatar body glitched, gel rippling up and down his skin and clothing. He scrambled away from the blast, closer to me. “What was that?”

“Short-range EMP,” I said. I’d expected the blast sooner. “You may want to move. You’re practically on top of another one.”

Jeremy leapt a safe distance away. “Why does she even have those?” he said, shaking out his arm. “It can’t be good for the nanobots.”

“They regenerate,” I said, enjoying the show. “I’m surprised you didn’t know that. I thought nobody knew the Raptor better than you did, Jer.”

“Ugh! Okay, okay, I get the picture. I’m going. Sadists.” Jeremy melted into the floor, a decidedly odd thing to watch. Maybe not as weird as the time he’d literally exploded out of my cell phone, though. His head sank into the gel last, with one final peevish look my way.

With him gone, all of the gel in the room shuddered and retracted toward the walls, returning to the charging bay.

“Your friend is annoying,” Jessie said over the intercom.

“Trust me,” I said, “he knows.”

“I need to digitally disinfect this place. Go hit the showers.”

I hurried to obey. If Jeremy hacking the room gained me early shower privileges, maybe I’d ask him to do it again—where Jessie couldn’t hear me. Half an hour later, I strolled into the kitchen, twisting my pinkie in my ear to get rid of excess water. A modest plate awaited me at the table. In the seat next to it, my trainer slouched with her feet up on the back of the next chair over, her eyes glued to one of the news monitors mounted near the ceiling.

“How’s tricks?” I asked Angélica.

She lifted a shoulder. For Angélica, that was practically a soliloquy. “I heard you mouthed off to Sharkbait at the briefing. You know Kiki’s been dealing with that for a lot longer than you’ve been around.”

“So? It doesn’t make what he said right.”

Angélica grimaced, but she obviously didn’t disagree. She had her arms folded over a tank top that bore her gym logo and her black hair had been pulled back into a ponytail. So, afternoon training would be against a physical opponent rather than a brutal logic puzzle.

Guilt ate at me as I picked at the turkey sandwich on the plate. “Okay, how badly did I screw up?”

Angélica looked away from the monitor. “Kiki won’t thank you for interfering. Jessie warned you to stay neutral in the mask. Defending the Davenport heir isn’t exactly a neutral stance.”

Though it was delivered in a mild tone, the rebuke still found purchase. Thanks to months of training, my first instinct was no longer to rip off the mask at first instinct. But even masked, there were other ways a person could reveal themselves. Body language, vernacular. Hitting an annoying dude with a bottle cap.

“Ugh,” I said, pushing the plate away. “I hate that you’re right. Sharkbait and all those other people are assholes. What good’s being a superhero if you can’t tell people they’re assholes?”

“That’s the spirit,” Angélica said, picking up my sandwich herself.

I looked at the news report, watching shaky cell phone footage of a woman in black and white flying through the air. “Now there’s someone who doesn’t let being a superhero stop her from calling people assholes,” I said. “Is she in Paris? I thought her show was in Milan this week.”

“She’s got to throw people off her scent somehow,” Angélica said.

“Point,” I said. Plain Jane didn’t visit Paris often, but when she did, France braced for impact. I always wondered how they’d react if they found out Plain Jane was in their city more often than anybody knew.

Most of the world had no idea Plain Jane was also Victoria Dawn Burroughs: supermodel by day, superhero by night, and my first mentor at Davenport. Vicki’s idea of mentorship left much to be desired, but she brought me trinkets from her various trips. Supermodels got access to free makeup and other goodies, and Vicki was always willing to pass along the spoils.

“I hope she doesn’t miss her call time,” I said, watching the TV as Plain Jane landed hard in the middle of an intersection, leaving a dent behind.

“Knowing her, it was hours ago.” Angélica checked her phone when it beeped. A sly grin crossed her face. “That’s an update on your Ack-Man villain from last night.”

Obligingly, I rolled my eyes at her.

“They don’t think he has any powers,” Angélica said.

“Good. No Villain Syndrome warning signs?”

Angélica shook her head, and I did my best to keep my sigh of relief internal. During my brief stint in Detmer Prison, Villain Syndrome patients had gotten a little too close and personal for my taste. My own cell mate had been the first recorded case, Rita Detmer herself. It keeps you up at night, being roommates with the woman the prison is named after.

“So Ack-Man has no superpowers, no VS,” I said, getting up to refill my water. That meant he’d be going to jail with regular humans—Class D, as we rated super abilities like school grades for some reason. “I really hope he doesn’t wander back to supervillainy. The field’s a little overcrowded lately.”

“Overcrowded, but with no real organization at the moment,” Angélica said around a bite of her sandwich. “So we can thank our lucky stars for that.”

“True. But I wonder why there’s no third option.”

“Hmm?”

“It’s either join Davenport or take the evil route and wind up in Detmer. Why’s there not, like a low-key support system for people who want to go on living their lives without all of Davenport’s stupid rules?” I thought of an ex-coworker, the world’s vainest woman with the ironic power to turn invisible, and wondered how she navigated the day-to-day aspects of her life. Portia McPeak had never seemed particularly good or evil, and she hadn’t wanted anything to do with Davenport. “Why’s there not, like, a super-but-not-a-superhero support group?”

“I don’t know, but I’m certainly too busy to start one, and you are, too.” Angélica finished the sandwich and carried her plate to the sink. She plucked something from the counter and dropped it in front of me. “Speaking of Davenport.”

It wasn’t hard to guess what the heavy, cream-colored envelope in front of me held. Sure enough, two tickets to the Davenport gala flitted out when I opened it. “What? No! Hostage Girl’s a has-been. Even the news doesn’t care about me now. I thought I was safe. What possibly could the Davenports have in common with Gail Godwin?”

“Nothing, which is why the tickets are for that rich boyfriend of yours.” Angélica clapped me on the shoulder and laughed. “Congrats, Gail. You’re the plus one.”

I put my head down on the table and groaned.

#Herofail Chapter 2





It turned out being a superhero didn’t save anybody from the worst evil: meetings. The current reason why my alarm clock shrilled in my ear far, far too early.

Guy flicked my shoulder and I begrudgingly thumped the alarm clock a little harder than necessary. The plastic casing creaked. More importantly, the beeping stopped.

“Eddie Davenport sucks,” I said into my pillow before lifting my head to glare at the darkness outside.

“Yes, so you’ve said,” Guy said without opening his eyes. He had an impressive case of bedhead. And he’d shucked off his shirt, which even half-asleep and grumpy me could appreciate.

“The man knows I’m training to be the Raptor, who operates under the cover of darkness. And you know what darkness requires? Lateness. As in late at night.” I faced my fate, setting my feet on the cold floor. “He knows I need to be out late and he still sets briefings at the ass crack of dawn, solely to get back at me.”

“I think you might be feeling slightly self-centered today,” Guy said, far too amused. “Not a criticism, just a note. Eddie doesn’t even think about your schedule.”

“Eddie takes sadistic pleasure in making my life hell, there’s no way that man doesn’t have my schedule memorized,” I said. Ever the considerate girlfriend, I let Guy go back to sleep and finished dressing in the dark, snatching up my water bottle before I climbed onto the fire escape. I checked to make sure nobody was around before I collected my bicycle, glanced at the ground four stories below, and hopped the railing.

The trip downtown by bike would’ve taken anybody else a lot longer, but I’d absorbed the ability to phase from Angélica. It was a little like a slingshot, where I could alter my own momentum, throw myself across long distances, and land safely with a puff of air to release the force from the phase. On my bike, I could easily hop six blocks in an instant. I wore a helmet with a mirrored visor as a concession to Jessie. It really wouldn’t do to let the world know that Hostage Girl no longer counted herself among the regular humans.

Before I reached the Willis—or Sears, as true Chicagoans still called it—Tower, I swapped the helmet out for my Raptorlet mask, tracing my finger along the tufted ears hugging the line of my skull. The mask let me bypass the security guard at the way station altogether—a good thing, as Marsh and I’d never gotten along—allowing me to walk straight back to the ʼporter lounge.

Jon took one look at me and laughed as he folded up his magazine. “How will you miss me if you don’t go away?”

“What can I say? I love spending time with you. New York, please.” We’d seen each other less than four hours before, when he’d ʼported me back to Chicago after my fight in Battery Park. I’d been tempted to sleep in New York after I finished apprehending Nefarious Norman, but I hadn’t felt like sleeping on a cot in the main headquarters.

Jon put his hands on my shoulders; reality squeezed itself into nothingness for the briefest of seconds, and I opened my eyes to find myself in an identical room eight hundred miles away. I blinked away an ocular migraine. “Thanks for the lift,” I said, waving as I stepped out into the lobby for the Davenport Tower way station. “See you in another four hours, probably.”

“Looking forward to it.” Jon returned his attention to his magazine.

Davenport Industries had invested millions of dollars into creating a network of ʼporters between all the major cities. ʼPorting took both natural talent and a lifetime of training and dedication. Untrained ʼporters couldn’t intentionally hop even a single foot: I knew that from personal experience. No matter how many times I’d inadvertently ʼported myself out of danger, if I wanted to travel from Chicago to New York City on my own, I’d need a plane ticket or a car. And it’d take a hell of a lot longer than a blink.

The convenience of the travel involved didn’t make me feel any better about being summoned to Davenport Tower. Aboveground, Davenport Industries—worldwide leader in technology, mining, real estate, and whatever else made money—operated like any regular business. Only traveling below exposed any of the strangeness: in addition to pretty much running the normal world, Davenport kept watch over the superhero community. They employed, protected, guarded, and sometimes exploited those with powers. Any superhero willing to pull their weight and stay on the mostly right side of the law had a guaranteed place at Davenport Industries—for better or for worse.

My own experiences with Davenport tended to fall more on the worse side.

Most superpowered business took place in a secret facility belowground, but HEX meetings always met on the seventh floor. I hated it, as reaching the briefing room meant a trip through the Annals, a creepy portrait hallway full of (mostly) dead superheroes. It felt disrespectful to phase inside the Annals, so I walked on past the portrait of Kurt Davenport. He’d been the original Raptor, so it was only fair that I saluted him and his judgy face as I passed.

I gave the same salute to the portrait of Guy’s older brother, Sam, aka War Hammer. They had a sister in the family wing, and I didn’t want to be late. I stepped out of the hallway and into a small, nondescript waiting room. The coffee station in the corner held three full pots that I ignored for the water cooler, filling up my bottle.

Quiet footsteps approached. “Raptorlet,” said a voice behind me.

“Rodrigo.”

Rodrigo Calles had dressed for the meeting in gray sweats. The man didn’t own anything that contained color, and I wasn’t sure if it was because he was color-blind or because he simply detested any hue not found on the sea creatures he modeled himself after. Without another word, he reached around me and picked up one of the full coffeepots. He tilted his head back and poured the scalding liquid straight from the pot into his open mouth. It splashed a little, spattering my sleeve.

“What the—hey! You’re not actually a shark, have some manners. And leave some for everyone else.” It was like the man had never worked in an office environment. Come to think of it, he probably hadn’t.

Rodrigo wiped his mouth on his sleeve and pointed at a little piece of tape on the pot. “FOR SHARK-MAN ONLY” it read.

“Still gross,” I said.

“It’s three o’clock in the morning in San Francisco, need I remind you. I hate the East Coast.” Rodrigo refilled his pot from another one—without making up a new pot—and padded after me as I moved into the conference room.

As I stepped inside, a computerized voice announced my code name to the room at large, which was dominated by a single table. Most of the chairs were occupied already, meaning I was one of the stragglers. I wasn’t late, but Eddie Davenport still gave me a cold look as I found my seat. Next to him, Jessie, his twin sister and my boss, nodded in greeting. Most everyone had tablets or laptops open in front of them. I had only my water bottle.

Right before the clock hit six, a familiar figure hurried in with a tablet under her arm. I sat up straighter. I’d never seen Kiki Davenport at a HEX briefing, even though she ran Medical and seemed like an obvious choice for it.

She took a seat on Eddie’s other side without glancing my way.

“Let’s begin,” Eddie said, shuffling the papers in front of him. Monitors along the walls lit up with the word HEX, like we’d forgotten where we were. “My assistant will be taking the minutes and copies will be made available to everyone later today. Before we begin, is there any old business to cover?”

Shark-man raised his hand. “Motion to move the time of these meetings to sometime other than the middle of the night.”

“Seconded,” at least three of the costumed heroes on his side of the table—which represented the West Coast—said in unison.

“After this, briefings will return to the regular time, but this is something of a special circumstance,” Eddie said.

“What circumstance?” Radar Roxy asked, fiddling with her visor.

“We’ll get to that in a moment. Any other old business?”

I had no idea why Eddie insisted on running these briefings like a board meeting, as nobody ever really brought up old business or requested the minutes. I’d seen photographs of the original HEX briefings, where everybody either wore uniform suits or actual suits, but casual Fridays had hit pretty hard since the days of Kurt Davenport. Most of us rolled into meetings in a variety of costume states, some completely masked and others in sweats and street clothes. Judging from the aggravated look on Eddie’s face, he likely would’ve preferred a return to a formal dress code over a bunch of slouching, sleepy superheroes lounging around a table, and Shark-man guzzling coffee in the corner.

Still, business moved along. Seattle had been set on by a rash of oddly organized supervillains, which posed a problem. Supervillains were encouraged to look out for number one first, as that made it easier for the HEX network to take them down. When they joined forces, that spelled bad times for heroes. Pike Place Market still smelled a bit like burning from the attack, apparently. “Almost an improvement over the fish,” someone said, and Rodrigo looked offended.

Different groups had attacked the Alamo, the Bean, and the Brooklyn Bridge in the past couple of days, making it a bad week to work at landmark sites. In a final order of business, TNTeen was aging out of his hero pseudonym and would need a new name soon. We didn’t come up with one, but everybody did agree that TN-Early-Twenties didn’t have quite the same ring.

Throughout the squabbling, Kiki kept her gaze on the table in front of her. I sent a psychic push in her direction, but she ignored me. What was she doing here? She had minor psychic powers (I knew how minor because I’d inherited them from her), but her department didn’t take much interest in these meetings. And why was she sitting by Eddie and Jessie? She was their niece, but they usually did their best to ignore the family connection; there’s complicated family history, and then there’s the Davenports.

My answer came forty long, dragging minutes later. After the Maine superhero contingent finished detailing the latest attack by mutant lobsters—“cursed-aceans,” as Radar Roxy put it—Eddie cleared his throat. “Any other business?” he asked, and everybody shook their heads. “Then let’s get into why this meeting was called so early.”

Finally.

“I called you all here to let you know there will be a change in management at Davenport Industries. In the coming months, we’ll be bringing my niece to a more prominent position within the company leadership, with the intention of her taking over a third of Davenport’s interests. I’ve made the announcement here because unlike Jessie and me, Kristiana will take an active role in both the superpowered and the aboveground sections of Davenport Industries.”

I looked up sharply. Kristiana? We shared a mental connection and I’d had no idea Kiki was a nickname.

Around the room, people began to shift in their seats, a few of them frowning. It took me a stupidly long time to realize they weren’t reacting to Kiki’s full name.

“The announcement will be made to the general public at a press conference shortly,” Eddie went on, either not noticing or not caring that people had begun to rustle with hostility. “We’ll be hosting a gala in two weeks’ time to welcome my niece to company management. Invitations will be sent to those with a justifiable reason to attend.”

Mentally, I poked Kiki, who had yet to look up from the table. She glanced swiftly at me, apparently surprised enough to let a flicker of actual emotion leak through our bond. You had no idea this was coming, I thought at her, puzzled.

Eddie told me yesterday.

Do you even want this? I thought at her.

She returned her gaze to the table. Jessie looked up from her phone to peer at us suspiciously. Using psychic abilities during a HEX meeting was explicitly forbidden, but it wasn’t like Jessie could prove anything.

It’s complicated, Kiki said. I don’t want to talk about it here.

Fair enough. People trusted Eddie and Jessie, as they hadn’t inherited their mother’s powers and were immune to Villain Syndrome, a disease that made one want to save the world by destroying it. Eddie and Jessie’s younger brother, Marcus, hadn’t been so lucky. He’d been killed while attempting to destroy Grand Central Station. As his only child and somebody with power herself, Kiki lived every day under the umbrella of everybody’s suspicion. Would she develop Villain Syndrome like her father and her grandmother Rita? If so, when?

It was bad enough that she was already close to the inner workings of the most powerful company in the world by running Medical. Now it looked like she would be put in charge of a substantial part of Davenport Industries. Pretty much the last thing anybody with Villain Syndrome needed, really. I could partly understand why nobody looked exactly happy with this decision.

It didn’t help that her maternal grandfather was also a mad scientist. Thank god nobody knew that; there would be rioting in the streets.

“Any questions?” Eddie asked, obviously ignoring the suspicious looks everybody shot at the young woman on his left.

“So will she be turning evil and killing us all before or after the gala?” Rodrigo asked. “I need to decide whether to rent a tux.”

Kiki flinched. Jessie’s face shuttered. I twisted the cap off my water bottle and flicked it. Even before my powers, my aim had been solid; now it was pristine. The cap hit Shark-man in the throat. He jerked forward, hands on his neck and eyes bulging, before his healing factor kicked in. His head swiveled toward me, the promise of retribution in his eyes.

I stroked my chin with my middle finger. Kiki covered her mouth with her hand, which could hide either a smile or a frown.

“Ahem,” Eddie said pointedly, and I waited for a scolding. Eddie only said, “Any actual questions?”

Shark-man glared at me, but remained silent.

“Good,” Eddie said. “Dismissed. Hopefully those of you that can get back to sleep will, and for everybody else, have a good rest of your day.”

Rodrigo slunk from the room, shooting a vicious glare over his shoulder at me and taking my bottle cap with him, the jerk. The other heroes in the room filed out, giving me a wide berth.

“That wasn’t necessary,” said a quiet voice, and Kiki appeared at my side.

“He’s lucky it was me and not Angélica,” I said. “She would’ve punched him.” Which he deserved.

“Sharkbait’s an asshole, news at eleven,” Kiki said with a sigh. “What did you even hit him with?”

I showed her the bottle sans the cap.

“I should’ve guessed.”

Since flinging a beer bottle at a psychic villain had gotten me into this whole superhero mess once upon a time, it wasn’t surprising. I smiled back at her and popped to my feet. “Congrats on the promotion.”

“Thanks. It’ll take everybody some time to get used to it. Maybe in the meantime you could refrain from damaging employees over it. Even Sharkbait.”

“I make no promises,” I said, and Kiki gave me a look. “All right, fine, I’ll leave him alone. It doesn’t matter anyway because I’m not sticking around. I’m going back to bed.” Back to my warm blankets and warmer boyfriend.

“Enjoy,” Kiki said. “But let me leave first, in case Sharkbait’s outside waiting to enact vengeance.”

I could take Rodrigo in a fight, but it was sweet of her to look out for me, so I held back until I got a mental confirmation of all clear before I headed for the door.

“And where,” said a voice behind me, “do you think you’re going?”

I swiveled. “Home?” I said in a hopeful voice.

Jessie Davenport stood with her arms crossed, her eyebrows high. “I was planning to give you a few hours off until your little stunt with Mr. Calles,” she said.

“In my defense, I didn’t use any powers to hit him with that cap. I’m naturally that good.”

“Doesn’t matter. Your restlessness tells me you need some time on the obstacle course. If you know what’s good for you, you’ll get to headquarters before I do.”

I sighed. “Something tells me you took the Raptorjet to work this morning, too.”

“Would you look at that, it appears I did. You might want to hurry,” Jessie said, walking for the door with a slight limp. She’d fallen off a roof last week.

I cursed under my breath and leapt, phasing out the door. As I raced by, I swore I heard her laugh. It was foolish to expect that I would be able to go back to bed. After all, the first rule of being a superhero was you never got the day off.

Continued in Chapter Three

#Herofail Chapter 1




Chapter 01

I still hadn’t learned to fly.

For most people, that wasn’t unusual. Less than one percent of the population developed superpowers and among those that did, not many actually flew. And not everybody needed to fly, really. Contrary to popular belief, there were more useful powers out there.

But given that I was dangling from my fingertips off a rooftop more stories up than I cared to count, flying would have been stupidly helpful right about now.

If I could fly, this wouldn’t be happening. I wouldn’t have a supervillain chuckling his sparkly little head off across the roof. He’d surprised me with a concussive blast, and I hadn’t realized I was so close to the edge. I’d caught myself, but my startled reaction had unfortunately traveled back to the command center loud and clear.

And I also wouldn’t have two women absolutely losing it over my earpiece.

“What even was that noise?” Angélica Rocha asked. She sounded like she was wiping away tears, the jerk. Easy for her to laugh when she was chilling in an underground base hundreds of miles away.

“Hold, please,” I said through gritted teeth.

“Gail.” Jessie Davenport, who’d probably never let a single supervillain knock her off a roof, took over the line. “A note for the future: the Raptor does not say ‘ack.’”

“He surprised me!”

The supervillain called, “Who are you talking to?”

I almost rolled my eyes at him. He wanted to talk? A properly evil foe would’ve simply vaporized me where I dangled, or at least stomped viciously on my fingers. This guy only shuffled toward me. My ears picked up every nuance of the way his boots—polished to a mirror shine—tread on the gravel. I decided to stay put. At least he’d picked a nice night for supervillainy. Chicago was experiencing a mild October this year. The wind off the Lake wasn’t even that cutting yet.

“Are you still there?” he said, finally stepping into range.

I hauled myself up, lunging forward over the edge of the roof. My fist slammed into his jaw at just the right spot, and his body thudded onto the gravel.

Without at least a little invincibility, he needed better armor.

I crouched and took his ray gun, and clipped it to my own belt. He had a few nasty tricks in his satchel, explosives and the like, but the shiny outfit and the toys seemed to be all he had going for him as a supervillain. Sorry luck to run into me, the Raptor’s apprentice, on his first villainous foray.

I pulled a zip tie from my pouch and pressed a tracking beacon on the front of his helmet, which I left on as a measure of respect. Time for me to book it: in this neighborhood, it’d take less than ten minutes for the cops to get here.

Time to go. I strode to the edge of the building and hopped over the side. A split second later, my boots landed without a sound on the pavement below.

I couldn’t fly, but I wasn’t entirely without tricks.

I darted to my motorcycle, careful to stay out of sight. Not that it mattered: my uniform had been chosen for its lack of character. It caught the light in some shade between bronze, dark gray, and black, and served to be absolutely unmemorable. When I pulled my motorcycle helmet on, it looked like any other full bodysuit cyclists wore. Nobody on the road would have any idea how many thousands of dollars I was wearing, and how much R & D had been put into my outfit.

My mask split away under the helmet as I swung my leg over the bike. The data stream switched to the visor, displaying a list of the local dispatcher reports. I ignored that and kicked the bike into gear. Angélica would alert me if anything came up. Since she’d been my trainer and we’d faced death together multiple times, I trusted her.

That didn’t mean she liked to take it easy on me.

“I thought you said that would be a one-punch bad guy,” she said as I merged into traffic.

“I mean, he technically was,” I said. “It only took one hit once I got around to it. He wasn’t much of a villain.”

“He knocked you off a building.”

“Everybody gets in a lucky strike once in a while,” I said.

In response, she played my own voice back at me, which made me groan. I really had said “ack” when he’d hit me.

Best to let that one go, I decided. “Anything else in progress?” I asked.

“Nothing others can’t handle,” Angélica said. A pause followed, and I imagined she was conferring with Jessie. “The boss is heading home. Go ahead and patrol.”

Patrolling meant driving around waiting for a supervillain to attack. Kind of boring, but also relaxing in its own way. It hadn’t always been like that. Before I’d been dosed with a radioactive isotope and turned superhuman, I’d have given anything for some relaxing boredom. Days had consisted of waking before the sun, working long hours at a job I hated, going home long after the sun had gone down, and falling into bed. Lather, rinse, repeat—with occasional bouts of pants-wetting terror mixed in as every supervillain passing through Chicago tried their hand at kidnapping me.

And years later, here I was, actively looking for those same supervillains. Patrolling for them, even.

Back then, they’d been after me because they thought I was dating Blaze, Chicago’s main superhero. I hadn’t even known his true identity, and had told them so repeatedly. Not that they cared. The kidnappings had been unfair, but the media had been even worse. They’d stopped using my real name and had dubbed me Hostage Girl instead, demoting me to a cheap human-interest headline. Like I actually was a superhero, only with the world’s lamest powers. Unfortunately, the name had stuck. I was so famous for being publicly kidnapped that people to this day ran through traffic to walk on the other side of the street if they saw me approaching.

“The police picked up the Ack-Man,” Angélica said, breaking into my reverie as I drove along the river.

“Let’s not make that his name.”

“Too late. It’s already logged. He’s in custody, they’re taking him in.”

“Hurrah, the day is saved,” I said. “Hopefully he’ll take the humiliation as a sign that he should pick any other path but villainy and not as inspiration to kick off a vengeance quest.”

“It could go either way at this point. Speaking of excitement, there’s a new dispatch. Something’s going down at the aquarium.”

Blue words scrolled across the corner of my visor. It took only a glance before I bit back a laugh. “I guess that’s for me,” I said. “Nobody else is around to interfere, right? She gets testy if that happens.”

“I’ll warn them off.” Angélica’s voice darkened as details from her monitor joined the feed in my visor. Nothing surprising: one hostage, one villain in purple and red, at least three traps (two of them explosive). The villain in question had brought along a portable spotlight. She had the hostage dangling in some kind of spider web-rope contraption from the trees in front of the aquarium.

Rather than scoping out the situation or preparing weapons, I parked in the visitors lot and made my way through the fleeing crowd—tourists—and the ambling crowd—locals—toward the building. Behind a low wall, I shucked the rest of the armor, stripping to the yoga pants and tank top I wore underneath. Even Chicago residents used to the lake’s wintry ire would side-eye the outfit, but I wasn’t cold. The Mobium in my system saw to that.

“What’s the plan?” Angélica said as I fitted my earpiece back in and shouldered the backpack now holding my uniform.

“I don’t need a plan.”

“You should have a plan.”

“Please. She’s like a pussycat.”

“I don’t—” Angélica broke off in obvious frustration. “Fine. Do it your way. It’s your call.”

“I’ll let you know if I need backup.” I trotted toward the front of the aquarium, staying Lakeward because I liked the city lights flickering off the surface.

She’d prepared for our encounter, I saw. An arrow pointing the wrong way had BAD GUYS THAT WAY painted on the sidewalk in shimmering green chalk beside it. I gave the sign a wide berth and continued on.

Around the corner, green luminescent paint covered the entire sidewalk, enshrouding everything in a faint glow. It had been splashed onto the trees, benches, trash cans, and the little awning for visitors outside the front doors. I hoped it wouldn’t be difficult for the city workers to clean up. Or cancerous, really.

In the middle of the tableau was the hostage. He’d been trussed up, ropes wrapped around his torso and suspended from a tree, dangling horizontally a good ten feet off the ground. Red marred one of his temples, darker than his hair, making my heart jolt. But when he lifted his head and raised an eyebrow at me, he didn’t seem to be in any pain.

I smiled and gave him a little wave. “Hi, Guy.”

My boyfriend, six foot four, the strongest man in Chicago, and currently hanging from a tree like a helpless kitten, gave me a look that clearly said we would be discussing this later.

I opened my mouth to reply, but the concrete planter to my left exploded. I dodged a chunk of granite the size of my head, cursing. Plaster dust plumed, filling the air and glittering as it settled into the glowing paint.

“It’s about time!” a familiar voice called.

My ears rang from the explosion, making the words sound tinny and far away, but I ducked forward. Rocket boots soared over my head, singeing the hair on the back of my neck. Their owner landed, skidding over the green goo, and spun around to jab a finger in my direction. “Did you take the long way? We’ve been waiting for hours!”

It had probably been ten minutes, at best. “I was in class,” I lied, since the backpack and casual clothes made me look like a student. “What do you expect?”

“I expect battles.” Razor X, premier supervillain, drew herself up to her not-very-impressive-yet-still-taller-than-me height and flicked her half cape over her shoulder with a practiced move.

It flopped right back down. Overhead and out of her line of sight, Guy rolled his eyes.

Raze aimed her ray gun at my chest. I hadn’t seen this one before, which was a little worrisome. “Why aren’t you wearing the armor I sent you?”

I’d never had the chance. Jessie had absconded with the armor down to her workshop. I hadn’t seen it again, though my own armor had mysteriously improved not long after. But I couldn’t tell Raze that. “Because I’m not going to fight you,” I said instead.

“Ugh.” Raze whined and tapped a button on her gauntlet. I immediately braced for whatever she might throw my way, but a spotlight kicked on instead. Guy squinted miserably against it.

“Is that necessary?” I asked.

Raze waved her arms about. “You should be mad! I kidnapped your boyfriend and I held him as a hostage. You hate it when hostages get involved. He’s helpless. Fight me!”

A muscle flexed in Guy’s jaw, but he stayed put.

I folded my arms over my chest and simply stared at Raze. “What have we talked about?”

Raze stomped her foot.

“Raze,” I said. It’d be handy to know her full name for a proper scold, but in the year we’d been “dedicated enemies” (her words, not mine), I hadn’t gleaned much more than a few gun and armor designs from her, and the fact that she liked raspberries and lemons. “What have we talked about?”

Her glare deepened, but eventually her shoulders sagged, her cape rippling at the movement. “I need to stop kidnapping Boy.”

“His name is—”

“Guy. I know. I need to stop kidnapping Guy.”

“This is the second time this month. Go on, let him down,” I said.

Raze kept her arms crossed over her chest for a long, considering moment, a pout firmly in place. I blinked, and her entire demeanor shifted. “Sure thing,” she said.

“Razor-whatever-your-middle-name-is-X, don’t you—”

She gleefully disintegrated the rope holding Guy up.

I put on a burst of speed and dashed across the courtyard. Catching Guy was pretty awkward since he was so much bigger than me, but I could cushion the blow somewhat. Not that falling from that height would hurt him, but Raze didn’t know that.

Freed from the ropes, he yanked the duct tape off. “I’ve told you a thousand times I’m not going to scream,” he said to Raze. “You don’t have to use the tape.”

“But it’s my favorite.” Now that Guy was on his feet, Raze looked like somebody had taken her favorite death ray away. “You know, we wouldn’t have to go through this if somebody would just be a damn hero for once and fight me.”

“Any other hobby,” I said, an old refrain. “Any other hobby we could pick up together, and I’m in. We could take a ceramics class and make things for you to shoot with your guns.”

For a second, she looked tempted, but the sulk settled back into place. “No thanks. It’s called fight or flight for a reason. If there’s no fight, I take flight.”

And true to her word, she took off on her rocket boots, streaking toward the skyline and leaving the mess splashed all over the aquarium steps. I really hoped it wasn’t dangerous to the fish inside.

Scowling, Guy ran both hands through his hair, making it stand up in spiky red tufts. He swiveled to face me. “Don’t even start.”

I couldn’t help it. I looked at him and the giggles overflowed.

“You’re a terrible girlfriend,” he said.

“She’s half your size! And you could flick your finger and—pow, she’d go flying. But—” I broke off laughing. After another minute of scowling, Guy finally shook his head and smiled. “Sorry,” I said. “I know, I know, it’s not really that funny, but if she only knew. What’s that on your head? There’s no way she could’ve hit you hard enough to draw blood.”

“Mango barbecue sauce.” He gave me an aggrieved look when I reached out to brush it out. “My hair’s all sticky. It’s awful.”

“You just happened to have that on you?”

“Since I was eating when she grabbed me, I did!” The aggravation only deepened. “She didn’t let me finish my sandwich.”

“That’s probably what he’s most upset about,” Angélica said in my ear, speaking up for the first time since I’d seen Raze. “And with good reason. He doesn’t have any more of those sandwiches, does he?”

I relayed this message on to Guy, who shrugged. “Take me back to the restaurant? I’ll make up a few for her.”

“He’s now my favorite,” Angélica said to me. “You’ve been demoted.”

“Please, he was always your favorite.” I toggled off my mic and turned to Guy. “Angélica’s probably already got the cleanup crew en route. We should scoot. Are you sure you have to go back?”

“Raze snatched me on my break. I’ve still got a couple hours left on my shift.”

I grimaced. Raze had been a repeat kidnapper back in my Hostage Girl days. Little had I known that she’d been doing so in hopes that I would develop superpowers and become her rival. In her mind, we were destined to be the next Fearless and Raptor. She was half-right, though she had no idea. The day I’d shown up in prison (wrongfully convicted) with superpowers had probably been one of the greatest days in Raze’s life. Since then, she’d done everything short of standing outside my apartment with a boom box held aloft to convince me to fight her. And when that hadn’t worked, she’d escalated to hostage taking. As Guy was the only one she’d ever seen me with, that made him a target. Which, if he’d been a regular human, might have been alarming.

Since he was the former superhero Blaze, it was more of a nuisance than anything else. And a real role reversal from our Hostage Girl days, though Raze didn’t know that either.

“Maybe I should just fight her,” I said as we headed for the parking lot.

“You give her an inch . . .” Guy shook his head. In addition to the barbecue sauce on his temple, he had a streak of something orange-red across one shoulder of his chef’s tunic. “How late are you patrolling?” he asked me.

“Until Angélica gives me the all clear. So much for hoping that Jessie would let me off early for the briefing tomorrow.” The official superhero emergency response briefing, called the Hero Emergency Connection—how X stood for Connection I didn’t know—was scheduled for 6 a.m. the next morning, east coast time. That meant 5 a.m. for me and 3 a.m. for my unfortunate west coast brethren. “What about you?”

“Lowry will probably ask me to stay late.”

I paused by the bike and chewed on my lower lip. Thanks to his redhead complexion, I could see the smudges of exhaustion under his eyes. Superhero invincibility didn’t necessarily come equipped with the ability to fight ordinary fatigue. “You could go home and get some sleep, you know,” I said.

But Guy shook his head. “I need to finish out my shift.”

“It’s one shift, Guy—”

“I need to be there,” Guy said. Not harshly, but firmly enough that I took a slight step back. He pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed at himself. “Sorry. But we’re serving flounder tonight, and he may be the master at it, but it makes Lowry grumpy. It’s better if I’m there.”

I looked down, ostensibly to open the compartment and retrieve the helmet, but really to hide my frown. “Want to drive?”

Guy took the helmet. “You sure? I thought Jessie had rules about who drives the bike.”

“She’s not here, and like my esteemed trainer and compatriot, she likes you more than she likes me.”

“In that case.” Guy strapped the helmet on and offered me a hand as he climbed onto the bike. “Thought you’d never ask.”

I gave him a smile and leaned against him while he drove away from the Lake. The minute I knew he was more focused on driving, I let the smile drop. The Mobium in my system had honed my senses to the point where I could hear somebody’s heartbeat or check the dilation of their pupils, if I chose. My brain could sort out any number of stimuli most humans ignored. In the field, it sped up reaction times and sharped my fighting skills. In my personal life, I wished I could turn it off.

Sometimes it sucked to know when people were lying.

When I was trying to get to the bottom of some mystery? Incredibly helpful. When it was my boyfriend and I couldn’t figure out the severity of the lies? Not so much.

I didn’t mention it when I dropped him off at the restaurant. An old fear nibbled at the back of my throat. Guy’s strange behavior could have been any number of things, most of them harmless. He’d retired from superheroism the year before to follow his dreams and become a chef. Though he hadn’t actually said anything, I had the suspicion that climbing the culinary ladder was more difficult than he let on most nights.

But why not simply tell me that? Why act like he had some kind of secret, if that was the case?

Guy pulled into the fire lane behind the restaurant and swung one of his ridiculously long legs off the bike. “Coming in?”

“If this thing gets towed, Jessie’ll have my head,” I said, taking the helmet from him. I glanced toward the doors. “Last chance to ditch, Bookman. I bet Angélica would cover for me if I decided to play hooky, too.”

“I really wish I could,” Guy said, and at least that felt genuine. So did the grin he shared as he scrubbed at the barbecue sauce on his temple. “But the two of us calling off work at the same time? That’s practically begging for a supervillain uprising. We’d better not risk it.”

“Once again, your logical side wins out.” I batted my eyelashes at him. “Your loss.”

For a second, he paused, then ruefully shook his head. “Stay here, I’ll get the sandwiches.”

I let the bike idle, hoping the silence on the comms meant that all the criminals in Chicago and New York City had maybe decided to call it an early night so I could go home and get enough sleep before the HEX meeting.

I should have known better than to even think it. Ten seconds later, my comms beeped. “Yeah?” I asked, toggling my mic back on.

“A friend of yours showed up in Battery Park,” Angélica said. “I bet you’re dying to catch up.”

“Of course I am.” So much for an early night.

The door to the restaurant swung open, haloing Guy with light from the kitchen for a brief second as he jogged out with carryout boxes in a plastic bag. “Can you at least stay and chat while you eat?”

“I wish I could,” I said, rising up on tiptoes to give him a quick kiss, “but as it stands, danger calls. I’ll see you later. Angélica, I’m on my way.”

And, sandwiches safely tucked away, I drove off in the night to fight another supervillain.

Continued in Chapter Two

Tuesday Thoughts: Unpacking Rogue





Hey, all!

I was gonna write a list of my favorite superheroes today and what I like about them, but it’s obvious who I love. I have a type. And a not-too-great history with comics (they’re difficult for me to read and follow). There are great swaths of the superhero universe left undiscovered for me. I could list fifty superheroes and get comments in the vein of “But what about X?” and then I’ll realize, oh wait! I love X, too! How could I have forgotten X???ª

Also boring? Head to head battles between heroes on the same side. My favorite way of answer to the worn out question of “Who would win in a fight, Superhero Woman A or Superhero Woman B?” is “The patriarchy.” Because it’s true. That’s who wins. Pitting two minority communities against each other to fight for the tiniest sliver of pie while the patriarchy enjoys multiple fat slices to themselves? That’s just history repeating itself ad nauseum.§

So no ranked superhero list from me. Instead I wanna talk about Rogue.

Yes, that’s right. Rogue. The reason you’re here on my blog reading my stuff, even though you have no idea that’s the case. † Two-toned hair, a southern accent, and a deft-but-deadly touch.

Between tenth and eleventh grade, X-Men hit theaters. I saw it at least five times in theaters itself. I had posters. I had folders. I spent time daydreaming about it. I still listen to Logan and Rogue from the soundtrack as part of most of my writing playlists (there’s just a part where the music picks up that I adore).

It was clear to me—and hoo boy did this ever prove not to be the case, THANKS RATNER—that this was a great origin story for Rogue and for Wolverine. I never shipped them, but I liked their parallel arcs. And as a kid, I was obsessed with the movie Fly Away Home, basically ensuring that I hopped on the Anna Paquin fan train early and stayed there. My mom can probably quote that movie from start to finish just because I wore out our VHS tape of it.

Anyway, in X-Men, Rogue is…well, she’s a damsel in distress. But I was always okay with that because frankly, she’s a kid who had a horrible thing happen to her and she didn’t have the power or coping skills to fight back against the super powerful villains intent on using her for their apocalyptic plan. It was easy to imagine myself in her place. I wouldn’t know how to deal with that, either. In the end, she was saved by somebody willing to sacrifice himself so she could live and I liked that, too.

X2 built on it even more. Rogue is still a teenager, so young and powerless in a lot of societal ways, but she’s grown more confident. And we see her use her abilities in this movie to help save the day. She’s grown! She’s on the trajectory that I would expect her to take, given that by this point, I’ve done my research. I’ve gone and watched the old cartoons I loved as a kid, I went and found comic panels of her online. I knew how powerful she could be, and X2 showed those powers nicely.

And then X3 happened. How bad is X3? Well, canonically, it’s so bad that it killed X-men movies set in that era for YEARS and then they had to use time travel to completely undo its events. X3 burned its towns and villages and salted the earth even as it shot itself in the foot repeatedly. X3 killed my love for X-men movies, and that love has never returned.

And X3 did Rogue SO dirty. So, so dirty.

Rogue’s powers have always been a disability, even while they offer the opportunity for great power. For somebody robbed of a moral compass, they would be amazing! Not being able to share the simplest touch with somebody without draining their life force? Great for villainy, shit for every day interaction. And Rogue, obviously, is not soulless or amoral, so her powers work as a preventative measure against villains she can touch and that’s it.

Traditionally, comics have come up with workarounds so that Rogue can function semi-normally. X3, however, straight up offered an opportunity for her to be rid of those powers. And when Rogue, who has not been made powerful or been given the workarounds from the comics, jumps at the opportunity to be able to touch somebody again without killing them, she is shamed for it by Storm and by her boyfriend.

Readers, I nearly blacked out with fury.

First of all, I was pissed that they obviously didn’t care enough to give me the powerful, ass-kicking Rogue I knew from the comics and cartoonsƒ. And secondly, I was outraged on her behalf. She can’t touch people without killing them. How many times does she have to say that? For years she’s wandered around in full coverage outfits, probably touch-starved to hell and back. How utterly lacking in empathy do you have to be to see how miserable that is??? I’ve read some great discourse on how this is a great analogy for fights that happen in disability rights communities, and I can definitely see that. But I was just angrier that I wasn’t getting the Rogue who could fly and zap and superhero her way around. My wants are simple. I wanted the potential of what fifteen-year-old me saw in that first X-men movie to become true.

So eventually I ended up writing it myself. I’m not saying everything I write is motivated by spite. Only, like, 63% of it. Gail’s main influence will always be Lois Lane, but I can’t deny, there’s a whole hell of a lot of my feelings about Rogue mixed in there, too. And quite a lot of that fifteen-year-old me who went to the theater multiple times and hung up posters in her room and dreamed about what Rogue could be, even if it took me awhile to figure that out.

And hey, maybe someday they’ll do right by a cinematic Rogue.±

That’s all she wrote today, folks! Stay sexy!
Lexie


ª ADHD. The answer to this is always ADHD.

§ Yes, I know we also do the same thing to Superman and Batman, pitting their powers against each other. But it feels different because we’re never in danger of not getting a Superman or a Batman movie because we already had one of the other and it didn’t do so well. That’s a constant danger with female- and superheroes of color.

† Or you didn’t until you read that sentence.

ƒ Fun fact: she gets her powers from doing awful things to my #1 bae Carol Danvers so maybe I should be retroactively grateful for that!

± But I’m not gonna hold my breath. Or get into what Days of Future Past did in this post because I only have so many hours in the day.

It's All About the Gail




Hey all!

On Fridays as part of Fifty Days of Fail, I'm basically filling out one of those early aughts email profiles we used to love back in the day. Obviously there are spoilers for SUPERHEROES ANONYMOUS #1-3 in here, but there also might be some things you don't know about these crazy people who sprang fully formed from my head like living migraines. First up, we have Gail Godwin, the center of her (and my) universe!


Name:
Gail Olivia Godwin*

Hero name:
Hostage Girl, The Raptorlet

Age:
28

Occupation:
Superhero Apprentice, but for tax purposes she claims to be an admin

Any description in the book?
I've described her hair as curly, which is not fair to the character, as I have also never shown her struggling with this and any curly-haired person can tell you this is unrealistic. She's also very muscular, and has hazel-colored eyes.

My favorite thing about this character:
Everything? I like that she essentially plants herself in one place and forces the world about her to change. She's not going to make it easy for them, and she won't help them, either. Supervillains probably found her frustrating in her Hostage Girl days because rather than cower in fear, she treated them with unaffected and unrelenting sarcasm. It's fun to write a character who sticks to her guns, especially when I'm really not like that too much.

The most challenging aspect of this character:
See my previous answer. Gail is an inertia machine. If you plonk her somewhere, she will stay somewhere until there is a catalyst strong enough to force her to move. This catalyst typically involves dynamite, by the way. A lot of the time, I've had to resort to Gail being forced to act by other characters and by ticking time bombs. Once you get used to her, it's easy enough to figure out how to work around this, but writing SUPERVILLAINS ANONYMOUS was a nightmare.

How have they changed over the years?
Gail has gone through a total transformation over the last four books, which is a relief. If the opposite were true, they would be very terrible books--just saying. She started out as a woman perpetually waiting for the other shoe to drop—which is understandable, as that other shoe usually kicked her ass when it did drop—and over the years, she's blossomed into her own. Being able to actually hit back and make a difference is a big part of that, but I think Gail owes a lot to the very patient people around her.

Dream actor:
Anna Kendrick. 100000% Anna Kendrick.

Authorial headcanons I've never shared about this character:
Not so much a headcanon but originally we were going to meet Gail's father and half-siblings, none of whom knew about her existence, and all of them would be part of Guy's world. But even though I wrote the first book living in the Hamptons, I really didn't like that lifestyle and Gail's father (and possibly other family) remains a mystery to this day. Not an important one, for her.

Favorite Quotes:
“Doing things the smart way is not in the Gail Godwin playbook.” - #Herofail, Chapter 13
Yeah because I had the luck of a one-leaf clover. - How to Save the World, Chapter 10


And that's all she wrote today, folks! See you back here on Monday for more Fifty Days of Fail, or you can follow along on my social media on the weekend!

Stay sexy!
Lexie  

* Gail's original middle name was Alexandria, but I picked that for a penname instead. Olivia is 100000000000000% after Olivia Dunham, light of my life.

Quotable Thursday (47 Days to Go!)




Hello, all!

As part of my #50DaysOfFail celebration, I’ll be posting some profiles, easter eggs, etc. On Thursdays, I plan to revisit previous books and out of sheer and complete vanity, list some of my favorite quotes from those books. Warning: they’re usually Gail sassing people. But without further ado, please enjoy these quotes from HOW TO SAVE THE WORLD. Um, spoilers, obviously.
I climbed out of the passenger seat. “Do I have a curfew, Mom?” I asked.
Jessie rolled her eyes. “Do your best not to end up in an inordinate amount of trouble.”
“So a moderate amount is okay, then?”
“Let’s go with ‘expected’ rather than ‘okay.’ Text me when you’re done.”
- Chapter 11

“Yeah, yeah. Give him the money, get the stuff. Deal with it when shit inevitably explodes,” I said.
The team leader gave me a look that said he was very used to dealing with superheroes and that he did not particularly enjoy his job.
Chapter 13

“I got out of Detmer so we could be enemies, Gail. I did that for us.” Raze’s lip quivered. She flipped her visor up to give me a pitiful look.
People made of sterner stuff than me would have crumpled under the pressure of those puppy dog eyes, even though the woman in the alley had personally put me in the hospital seventeen times. I reached out and gripped her shoulder, giving it a reassuring squeeze. “I know, and I’m sorry. Do you want to come over? I’m picking up Chinese.”
She brightened temporarily. “Can I poison it? I’ve got this new formula I’m working on, almost worked out the bugs with the projectile v—”
“Absolutely not,” I said.
- Chapter 1

“I find these files out in the open and you confirm that Mobius has been here, and then almost the same day, this guy decides to ransom Mobius? Did I somehow cause this?”
“Wouldn’t be the first time,” I said.
“You love me, and you know it,” Naomi said.
- Chapter 9

“Some days I’m tempted to become a supervillain just to go back [to Detmer].”
“You’d be terrible at it. For somebody so small, you’re just brimming with really stupid feelings.”
- Chapter 7

I flicked through the magazine I’d brought until I found an article that would make Jeremy grind his teeth were he awake. “Time to wake up, buddy,” I said. “Or you’re going to hear all about what this article on perfecting smoky eye has to say. And trust me, it’s a doozy. I think they paid the writer by the word.”
- Chapter 19

See you tomorrow for the first profile. I bet you’ll never guess who it is!

Stay sexy!
Lexie

48 Days to Go!




As a follower to the blog, as part of my #50DaysofFail, you get a tiny bit more than my Twitter followers do on BookQW!

Angélica would alert me if anything came up. Since she’d been my trainer and we’d faced death together multiple times, I trusted her.

That didn’t mean she liked to take it easy on me. “I thought you said that would be a one-punch bad guy,” she said as I merged into traffic.

“I mean, he technically was,” I said. “It only took one hit once I got around to it. He wasn’t much of a villain.”

“He knocked you off a building.”

“Everybody gets in a lucky strike once in a while,” I said.

In response, she played my own VOICE back at me, which made me groan. I really had said “ack” when he’d hit me.

Best to let that one go, I decided.
48 days to #Herofail!!!! #50DaysOfFail

Stay sexy!
Lexie

#50DaysOfFail




Hey, all!

So in 49 days, #HEROFAIL will hit e-shelves and the thing I am terrible about as an author is promotion. So I’ve decided to break it up from the two gigantic things I promise myself to do and instead I’m doing 50 days of small stuff.

Otherwise known as FIFTY DAYS OF FAIL GAIL.

That’s right! For the next 50 days, there’ll be a little bit about Gail, her friends, the new book, the old books. Book Quote Wednesdays, character profiles, excerpts, online giveaways, and the first three chapters! You’ll be able to follow it here on my blog, on my Lexie FB page, on my Twitter timeline, or by tracking the #50DaysofFail hashtag on Twitter.

Today, however, I can only share my joy in the Captain Marvel trailer finally being released. I have been waiting for this moment since October 28, 2014, and I can’t think of a better way to kick off the final leg of our journey together. So let us watch, and let us revel, in the Captain Marvel trailer:



Until I see you again (tomorrow):
Stay sexy!
Lexie

The Final Stretch




So when I was thirteen and fourteen, I was on a canoe racing team. Hashtag relatable, I know. It was through Girl Scouts and we met at a campsite every Sunday and raced laps around a lake in preparation of the General Clinton Canoe Regatta. You were either bow or stern and each spot had its jobs. Stern was in charge of steering, bow kept a look out for dangers up ahead, etc.

The two best events of the year were thus:

The camping weekend where we were dropped off on Friday and picked up Sunday night and in between, we had to pass a swimming test, learn how to portage, successfully empty and right a canoe that had been overturned in the water, and do things like paint the canoe trailer. Everybody stayed in a giant cabin on the campgrounds and we all listened to our coach, Cecil, tell us the tale of the Jersey Devil (to this day, my favorite cryptid). Important detail: the campground was in the middle of the Pine Barrens.

The big race up in upstate New York where we stayed on campgrounds and put on lavish demonstrations of animosity towards our biggest rivals. This included a very long lecture from Cecil about the drunks we would encounter on the river. Upon arriving in New York, a member of each crew was selected to go down the river, in order to be familiar with its hazards.

The hazards are the important thing to bring up. My race involved three segments. We were the last leg of the relay, which meant we crossed the finish line for our team after five miles of having nobody but each other (and we did not get along). Right before the finish line, there was a giant, open space where the crowd could see us coming.

That space also contained a wind tunnel. So after five miles of arguing, our muscles tired, throat aching from counting, neck and neck with the other racers, we had to fight through the wind to reach the end. It. Was. Brutal.

Right now, I feel like I’m back in that wind tunnel.

#HEROFAIL will be on e-shelves on November 6th, 2018. It’s a book that’s more than a year behind deadline due to illness, anxiety, bad luck, writer’s block, and editor woes (though I’ve worked with some very lovely people and consider it an honor). It’s a story that constantly causes me to teeter back and forth between love and absolute loathing. Some days I call it a masterpiece (vanity, thy name is author) and other days it makes me doubt my very existence.

Currently, I’m on my final edits. Apart from some copy-editing, I won’t touch the book again and then you’ll see the finished product in November. Chapters 1-3 will be on the website starting on my birthday (because I can do that) and then throughout October. I’m not having issues letting go of it for once. I’m actually super happy to hand it over and dust off my hands and return to another project1.

SUPERHEROES ANONYMOUS began on November 1st, 2008. It was a way to distract myself from a job I hated and to make myself feel powerful. As a series, it will end 10 years and 1 week later. Here is a spoiler: it does not end on a cliffhanger. My goal was to give this book—and its series—a proper ending. I can see that finish line in sight. I am excited to reach it, and when I get there, I hope whatever melancholy I feel about walking away from Gail Godwin and her glorious adventures will be vast outstripped by a sense of pride and happiness in what I’ve accomplished.

I just have to get through the rest of this wind tunnel first. And hopefully, I’ll see you on the other side.

Stay sexy,
Lexie

PS - This week's #bookqw cracks me up so I'm sharing it here.



1 - On September 1st, I am embarking on a project called Shitty Book September (+October) where I am giving myself permission to write the worst book possible. I'm really tired of high standards, guys. It's 1230 words a day and they don't have to be good words. Feel free to come along.

This post is literally just about my pets

Hello!

So it's been like eight months since I updated here, as my sister Grace just pointed out to me. She's actually hanging out in my office with me—not something she usually does—because in the last few months some changes have happened in the Dunne household.

And both of those changes have four legs. One lives in my office under a heatlamp and the other likes to sleep in my office under my feet.

First up, meet Darcy Lewis Dunne, a five-year-old pit bull who once went by the name Goose.


She's a rescue that we brought home in April in hopes of providing some companionship for Nikki. Unlike Cindy, Nikki does not seem to fear her. It's more of....a tolerate. Darcy is happiest when sleeping on or near a human and her love of naps really allows her to fit in around here.

She thinks she's a lap dog
Our newest addition is much more recent. Our cousins are moving to Germany for a couple years and didn't want to take their eight-year-old bearded dragon with them. So now we have...Axel. Who I call Lizard.

How YOU doin'?
Axel has been the source of so much Googling over the past three weeks. Thankfully herp enthusiasts—that's what they call themselves—are plentiful and very helpful to each other online, making it very easy for a first-time owner to panic a little less. Care of Axel has fallen squarely into the hands of my siblings as no way in hell am I touching a superworm. We learned this the hard way when my sister accidentally flung one at me and I screamed.

Sleepy Axel

We've been feeding him worms and carrots and grapes, so he gets a much healthier diet than I do. Plus a lot more sunlight. He makes for a good office buddy; while I write, he skitters about or stares at me in judgment. Which are the two things I think all readers of the Superheroes Anonymous series do, really, so it's nice that he's preparing me.

And of course, there's always this one. Who wants you to know she loves you.

Just kidding. Nikki hates everything.